haiz..finally what i am afraid of happen.. though it is expected but i still can't bring myself to accept it..why why why?? This really seems to be a bad year for me): all so screw up>< haiz..

If i can invented something, it would definetly be a time machine..i want to go back to the past!! i want to change everything now..I would learn to treasure you more and study well for my o'levels..

Why it had to be ended up like that?? didn't i tried my best to avoid it already? haiz..you so cruel..at first is you de one who wanted to start and force me to make a choice..NOW you leave me alone and force me to live without you.

I hope i could just tell you, "no i am not going to let you leave me.." but how could i do that?? i don't want to be a selfish, rritating person who keep forcing you to do what you don't want.. I had tons of words want to tell you but its too late and i promised you i would not bother you again..

Actually i had been waiting for today..to face the truth.. Truth hurts but i still have to accept it alone..today is actually meant to be a happy day but it wasn't..instead it hurts me more..i have sorts out and know this is the correct choices..

I found out that all those you told me is just a lie..you don't love me..right?

But i still can stop myself miss-ing you.. ok..i actually told myself i would forget and stop thinking about you after today.. ..so this would be my last post about you..you will always be the great dear i love and i will be proud of you..loves always~

hopefully i will be able to sleep tonight with the swollen panda eyes><

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